My DISqualifications

disqualifications(Why I’m a Total   Rookie)

I really have no business blogging. Not if you put me up against any degree of an expert, thought leaders, or, well, anybody with over 8 months of experience in their subject matter. I’ve really & truly only just begun. Never gone full-speed-ahead in pursuit of my creative dreams, never had any formal art training (minus one life-changing class in college), never been a blogger, never put anything at all about myself online, ever, & hell— I’ve never even really had my sh!+ together until this year. (Ready to exit the page yet?)

But, all that aside, there is one thing that I have gotten right after so many years of missing the boat. Now, for the first time in my life, I’ve finally refused to let anything get in the way of me building my dreams. Not my completely “unqualified” rookie status. Not the fact that I (still) have no idea what I’m doing, in the worlds of blogging or art. Not my chronic fear of exposing my dreams & my inner thoughts to public (much less on the world wide web). Nothing at all. The former era is over, no longer will I get in my own way… Never mind that I’m a complete rookie, it’s not going to stop me from going boldly ahead with my dreams… I am but a rookie, but I am going rogue.

Just be a little more clear, though, on who exactly I am… I have never been known as the “example” anything, I’m not status-quo compliant or Emily Post-approved, & I’m definitely not here to be politically correct. I’m here to be myself, & do it “my way”, which inevitably involves the breaking of some rules & the ruffling of some feathers. That’s just what comes with the territory. I’ve been down this road many times before.

So, safe to say, you can expect stories of mistakes, flubs, & an epic meltdown here & there (my going rate is 2 good ones a year now). I’m known more for my over-the-top theatrics than for my flawless execution (of anything, at all). I have a naturally tendency towards pulling unplanned stunts & generating epic monologues on the spot, the likes of which entertain witnesses for years to come & even myself sometimes too. But despite my drastic lack of expertise & my sometimes un-approvable behavior, I am who I am, & right or wrong, I’m usually good for entertainment value, if nothing else.

But being the rookie that I am & having just started this new adventure, much of what I write about is me finding my way through this obstacle course called life, maybe just like you are. At the end of the day, I’m just another imperfect person-in-progress, but now with a dream that’s finally in progress. I’m learning as I go, & I’m sharing as I grow, attempting to smooth out the rough edges as I move along & solve the question marks as I get to them. I may not hit the mark every time, but I’ll always give it my best shot.

I don’t know where I’m ultimately headed with this creative dream-building venture. I don’t have an exact end-goal or a clear destination in mind, but I’m going rogue anyways. I know I’m on the right track, & I’ve learned that that’s all I need to know for now. And I don’t know exactly what this new blog mission will shape up to be in the future, but I’m building it anyways. I can’t see too far ahead, but that’s not stopping me from taking the leap. One thing I have learned so far is that sometimes, the only way to move forward is without a map, with nothing but blind faith and a shaky, unsure step. So, here I am, just as I am— rookie status & all. And here I go— the “where” & “how” I no longer need to know. I’m rattling, but I’m rolling. This is my dream, as it unfolds. This is me GOING ROGUE.

Check out my Manifesto next. It’s what I believe in, my battle cry.

Haven’t read my Bio yet? Get the Rookie rundown here.

Read about My Punky Roots & just how much I haven’t changed in 26 years.